I don’t feel any forgiveness.
I talked to people.
I read self-help books.
I read the Bible.
I still don’t feel any forgiveness.
They say forgiveness is supposed to help me move on
Empty words, empty thoughts, empty heart
Lying to myself won’t help me
I can forgive myself for believing your lies
I can’t forgive you for lying
I can’t forgive your abuse
I can’t even say you didn’t mean it because you did
I forgive myself for being deceived by you
For you I wish a cleansing fire
A reaping scythe
Nights and days and nights of no sleep
I don’t forgive you but here
You can hold my pain as long as you can bear it.